"Yeah, I know. It's what I do." But his words are a quiet mumble compared to all the others before it. He doesn't like how much it bothers him; it's no different than anything he's done before. Cleaner, really. More concise. Simple.
And yet it was none of those things because it was Jesper and that trumped everything else. All the other, messier deaths that had happened at his hands were nobodies to him. Jesper was much more than that.
"But it did." His voice is still quiet, which might be worse than the sharp snaps of moments ago. He doesn't trust his voice not to waver if he's much louder. "And you're back now, but... it doesn't change that it happened, does it? Still gotta live with it, don't we?" And that was the part that was always the hardest of it all, wasn't it?
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Date: 2021-10-10 09:32 pm (UTC)And yet it was none of those things because it was Jesper and that trumped everything else. All the other, messier deaths that had happened at his hands were nobodies to him. Jesper was much more than that.
"But it did." His voice is still quiet, which might be worse than the sharp snaps of moments ago. He doesn't trust his voice not to waver if he's much louder. "And you're back now, but... it doesn't change that it happened, does it? Still gotta live with it, don't we?" And that was the part that was always the hardest of it all, wasn't it?