Is that so? Well, then I will count my stars, since they've brought me so much luck.
I'm not. It wasn't okay.
What you saw... the weird puppet scene? I knew nothing about myself after that. I ended up in a cult because of it.
[Not information she hands over lightly, mind you. But there's a purpose to this explanation. She isn't handing it to him for the shock of it, but to explain why her reaction was so deep, so visceral.]
Yeah. My life has been... a lot of me being led by men, in all the worst ways.
[There's a part of her that she thinks will always be Daddy's Good Little Soldier, who thinks he hung the moon, but she's older now. She can see things she didn't always, in a different light now. She knows Ward was an abusive drunk, and that they all deserved more, and better, than that.]
I'm sorry. I know that doesn't mean much but...You deserve better.
[And certainly a better lot of men if this is where all of that history led. He doesn't know the whole of it, but the things he saw with her, the way she reacted? He knew enough.]
Whenever you feel up to it, I can show you the trick with making bullets. [A peace offering. A way forward.]
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Date: 2021-07-18 12:36 am (UTC)Well, then I will count my stars, since they've brought me so much luck.
I'm not. It wasn't okay.
What you saw... the weird puppet scene? I knew nothing about myself after that. I ended up in a cult because of it.
[Not information she hands over lightly, mind you. But there's a purpose to this explanation. She isn't handing it to him for the shock of it, but to explain why her reaction was so deep, so visceral.]
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Date: 2021-07-18 07:32 pm (UTC)[Unlike some people Jesper knows, he doesn't hold grudges for every slight. And this one--as he said, he got it.]
A cult. Shit--okay. Just makes everything make even more sense.
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Date: 2021-07-18 09:42 pm (UTC)Yeah. My life has been... a lot of me being led by men, in all the worst ways.
[There's a part of her that she thinks will always be Daddy's Good Little Soldier, who thinks he hung the moon, but she's older now. She can see things she didn't always, in a different light now. She knows Ward was an abusive drunk, and that they all deserved more, and better, than that.]
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Date: 2021-07-21 08:46 pm (UTC)I'm sorry. I know that doesn't mean much but...You deserve better.
[And certainly a better lot of men if this is where all of that history led. He doesn't know the whole of it, but the things he saw with her, the way she reacted? He knew enough.]
Whenever you feel up to it, I can show you the trick with making bullets. [A peace offering. A way forward.]
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Date: 2021-07-22 08:07 am (UTC)And Wylan.
Y’all are good kids.
[And yes, you’re kids, she doesn’t care how much you might argue the point. She’s almost 30, and you’ve still got “teen” attached to your ages.]
Thanks.
Means more than you think.
I definitely wanna see that.
We’ll find a time for it.